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Now Your Gone
18:47 Jan 27 2010
Times Read: 605

Now you're gone

I realize my love for you was strong

I miss you here, now you're gone

I keep waiting here by the phone

With the pictures hanging on the wall

Now you're gone

I realize my love for you was strong

I miss you here, now you're gone

I keep waiting here by the phone

With the pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be

Only dreaming that you're missing me

I'm waiting here at home

I go crazy, now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart

without my Anna it will break apart

it wont heal it never fades away

I will think about you everyday

[Ready for takeoff]

[instrumental]

[Are you ready?]

now your gone

I realize my love for you is strong

I miss you here now you're gone

I keep waiting here by the phone

with the pictures hanging on the wall

is this the way its meant to be

only dreaming that your missing me

I'm waiting here at home

I go crazy now you're gone

Now your gone

I realize my love for you was strong

and I miss you here now you're gone

I keep waiting here by the phone

with the pictures hanging on the wall

is this the way its meant to be

only dreaming that your missing me

I'm waiting here at home

I go crazy now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart

without my Anna it will break apart

it wont heal it never fades away

I will think about you everyday

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Hero of the Day
04:49 Jan 25 2010
Times Read: 610

Mama, they try and break me.

The window burns to light the way back home

A light that warms no matter where they've gone.

They're off to find the hero of the day

But what if they should fall by someone's wicked way?

Still the window burns, time so slowly turns

Someone there is sighing

Keepers of the flames

Do you feel your names?

Do you hear your babies crying?

Mama they try and break me

Still they try and break me

'Scuse me while I tend to how I feel

These things return to me that still seem real

Now deservingly this easy chair

But the rocking stops by wheels of despair

Don't want your aid

But the fist I've made for years won't hold or feel

No I'm not all me

So please excuse me while I tend to how I fell

But now the dreams and waking screams that ever last through the night (echoed between James and Jason)

So build the wall behind it crawl and hide until it's light

Can you hear your babies crying now?

Still the window burns

Time so slowly turns

And someone there is sighing

Keepers of the flames, can't you feel your names?

Can't you hear your babies crying?

But now the dreams and waking screams that

ever last the night

So build a wall behind it crawl

And hide until it's light

So can't you hear your babies crying now?

Mama they try and break me

Mama they try and break me

Mama they try and break me

Mama they try mama they try

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Lightening Crashes
07:25 Jan 16 2010
Times Read: 624

lightning crashes, a new mother cries

her placenta falls to the floor

the angel opens her eyes

the confusion sets in

before the doctor can even close the door

.

lightning crashes, an old mother dies

her intentions fall to the floor

the angel closes her eyes

the confusion that was hers

belongs now, to the baby down the hall

.

oh now feel it comin' back again

like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind

forces pullin' from the center of the earth again

I can feel it.

.

lightning crashes, a new mother cries

this moment she's been waiting for

the angel opens her eyes

pale blue colored iris,

presents the circle

and puts the glory out to hide, hide

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Winter Sun
17:59 Jan 13 2010
Times Read: 628

I could hear you fall,

I could feel your body through the floor,

And all I see is the red of your blood for the first time

As i hold you there,

As i rush your pale life through the door,

I feel the heat rise up, from your shape in the cold light,

Will the winter sun keep us warm, in these cold times?

Will the winter sunlight keep you warm, untorn, untorn and alive?

See them hold you down,

Never felt them push me back to the wall,

Still i hear you cry terrified for the first time, first time

Will the winter sun keep us warm, in these cold times?

Will the winter sunlight keep you warm, untorn, untorn and alive? alive?

I would give my life to keep you safe, for a lifetime,

I would give my life to keep you safe, for a lifetime,

I would give my life to keep you safe, for a lifetime,

Will the winter sunlight keep you warm, untorn, untorn and alive?

Will the winter sunlight keep you warm, will it keep you warm, untorn, untorn and alive, untorn and alive?

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A different kind of pain
17:47 Jan 13 2010
Times Read: 629

Before i let you go

Give me just one more night to show you

Just how i feel

I lost all my control

If it takes my whole damnned life i'll

Make this up to you

Im kinda like the waves that roll their whole life

Towards somewhere crashing it on the shore

Thats blown in by the wind that carries the clouds

To hide my wish on a fallen star

A differnt kind of pain, is someone there to hold you

Is someone there to take you away from me

I tried to let you go

I wish i could turn back time and show

You just how i feel

I needed you to know

If it takes my whole damned life i'll

Make this up to you

Before you let me go, i needed you to know

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A Minute away the plea
19:58 Jan 11 2010
Times Read: 633

Promoting a friends music hopefully they will get signed. Heres A Minute Away. Lead Singer is Dan he was on Canadian Idol almost won it. Couldnt be even more prouder of the boy.

Well enjoy folks

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Never Enough
07:21 Jan 11 2010
Times Read: 636

I'm so fed up with everyone around me

(No one seems to care)

I'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna change

(I'll never be the same)

It's always do this, do that,

Everything they want to

I don't want to live that way

Every chance they get their always

Pushin me away

[Chorus:]

It's never enough

No it's never enough

No matter what I say

It's never enough

No it's never enough

I'll never be what you want me to be

It's all so messed up and no one ever listens

(Everyone's deranged)

I'm just so fucked up and I'm never gonna change

(Wanna lay it all to waste)

Their always say this, say that,

Nothing that you want to

I don't want to live that way

Every chance they get their always

Shovin me aside

[Chorus]

I'm Done

[Bridge:]

In the end we're all just chalk lines on the concrete

Drawn only to be washed away

For the time that I've been given

I am what I am

I'd rather hate you

For everything you are

Than ever love you

For something you are not

I'd rather you hate me

For everything I am

Than have you love me

For something that I aint

It's never enough

It's never enough

No matter what I say

It's never enough

No it's never enough

No matter who I try to be

It's never enough

No it's never enough

No matter how I try to taste

It's never enough

Never never enough

I'll never be what you want me to be.

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A Farewell
19:56 Jan 08 2010
Times Read: 645

This song is so beautiful its not goodbye but farewell I will see you again soon.

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All the right moves
17:01 Jan 06 2010
Times Read: 652

All the right friends in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

They got all the right moves in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

Just paint the picture of a perfect place

They got it better than what anyone's told ya

They'll be the king of hearts

And you're the queen of spades

Then we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers

I know we got it good, but they got it made

And the grass is getting greener each day

I know things are looking up

But soon they'll take us down

Before anybody's on our way

They got all the right friends in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

They got all the right moves in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going

(yeah, we're going down)

I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going

(yeah, we're going down)

Do you think I'm special, do you think I'm nice?

Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?

Between the noise you hear and the sounds you like

Are we just sinking in the ocean of faces

It can't be possible that rain could fall

Only when it's over our heads

The sun is shining every day, but it's far away

Over the world, it said, they got, they got

All the right friends in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

They got all the right moves in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going

(yeah, we're going down)

I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going

(yeah, we're going down)

It don't matter what you see, I know I could never be

Someone that'll look like you

It don't matter what you say, I know I could never fake

Someone that could sound like you

All the right friends in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

They got all the right moves in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

All the right friends in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

They got all the right moves in all the right places

(so yeah, we're going down)

I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going

(yeah, we're going down)

I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going

(yeah, we're going down)

(Yeah, we're going down)

(Yeah, we're going down)

All the right moves, yeah

(Yeah, we're going down)

All the right moves, yeah

(Yeah, we're going down)

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Holy Night
16:50 Jan 06 2010
Times Read: 655

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When two become one
22:32 Jan 04 2010
Times Read: 656

BANG!

Explosions in my head that just won't quit,

A train has crashed into the wall around my heart and left the old me dead,

Obliterated.

STOP!

My breathing in the night when you're not there,

The silence ringing through my ears and all I want to do is hear your voice,

But you're not there.

Drawn Together,

Pain is rushed through,

Sleight of hand,

We, we won't go up in smoke,

Fates colliding,

Love undying.

Like the rising tide,

Beating hearts grow but never die,

To simplify,

I'll stand by your side,

Close my eyes,

Hope will never die.

Like the rising tide,

Beating hearts grow but never die,

To simplify,

I'll stand by your side,

Close my eyes,

Hope will never die.

GO!

And take away the pain of being me,

Soothe my soul caress my heart and,

end my fear all my bad memories,

Eradicated.

PAIN!

Like gunshots heard against a silent night,

My love is louder than these words,

They're stronger than the rest, unstoppable,

Unstoppable.

Drawn together,

Pain is rushed through,

Slight of hand,

We, we won't go up in smoke (up in smoke),

Fates colliding,

Love undying.

Like the rising tide,

Beating hearts grow but never die,

To simplify,

I'll stand by your side,

Close my eyes,

Hope will never die.(never die)

Like the rising tide,

Beating hearts grow but never die,

To simplify,

I'll stand by your side,

Close my eyes,

Hope will never die.(never die)

Will never die(never die)

DIE

Drawn together,

Pain is rushed through,

Slight of hand,

We, we won't go up in smoke,

Fates colliding,

Love undying.

Like the Rising tide,

Beating hearts grow but never die,(never die)

To Simplify,

I'll stand by your side,

Close my eyes,

Hope will never die.

Like the Rising tide,

Beating hearts grow but never die,

To Simplify,

I'll stand by your side,

Close my eyes,

Hope will never die.(never die)

We'll never die(never die)

DIE

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The Crimson
22:27 Jan 04 2010
Times Read: 658

I feel it welling up inside

And Robert Smith lied,

Boys do cry and with

Blood tears in my eyes I’m an Anne Rice novel come to life.

I can’t hide the monster… anymore.

One can, only feel desolate for so long until

One starts to change into

Something the mirror doesn't recognize.

Metamorphosize.

The darkness has been biding its time

To claim its latest victim,

Fresh meat for carnal desires,

To become, what I became.

I viewed the sun for the last time.

Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?

Will you still kiss me the same,

When you taste my victim's blood?

So crimson and red,

I feel it flowing from your lips. (Crimson and red)

My heart is dead and so are you.

And it pulses through,

The desire to change, to deconstruct

All of my,

All of my, past failings.

But where to begin, because when you live in sin

It’s hard to look at saints,

Without them reflecting your jet black aura back on you.

And all I have is hope

My inner burn’s not fading,

I’ll wipe the blood from my cheek and get on with my day.

Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?

Will you still kiss me the same,

When you taste my victim’s blood?

So crimson and red,

I feel it flowing from your lips. (Crimson and red)

My heart is dead and so are you.

And all I have is hope

And all I need is time

To bury in pine under six feet of time

The lies I told me about myself.

Claw my way out,

Pick the splinters from under my fingernails.

I won’t lose hope,

I won’t give in.

Just live and breathe, try not to die again.

Just live and breathe, try not to die again.

Just live and breathe, try not to die again.

I try not to die again.

Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?

Will you still kiss me the same,

When you taste my victim’s blood?

So crimson and red,

I feel it flowing from your lips. (Crimson and red)

My heart is dead and so are you.

Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?

Will you still kiss me the same,

When you taste my victim’s blood?

So crimson and red,

I feel it flowing from your lips.(When you taste my victim's blood)

My heart is dead and so are you.

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Blow
22:23 Jan 04 2010
Times Read: 659

So fucking

Blow those words out the back of your head

I've heard it all and I’m done with that shit

You tell me lies and

You give what you get

So blow those fucking words out the back of your head

Oh my god

Did you just hear

Lies are coming back in style

Oh my god

They seem so real that they bind you

And confine you

So shut your mouth we've heard it all

Hypocrites and critics all

Can fuck off we do this for our souls oh our souls

What they say won’t make us go away

So fucking

Blow those words out the back of your head

I've heard it all and I’m done with that shit

You tell me lies and

You give what you get

So blow those fucking words out the back of your head

We’re not sorry and we won’t conform

It’s not a choice but something inborn

If we fail following our hearts can you blame us. no no no

A square peg in a black hole

We don’t fit in, that’s the way it goes

You shouldn’t act like you’re better than us cause you're not no you're not

No no no

What they say won’t make us go away

So fucking

Blow those words out the back of your head

I've heard it all and I’m done with that shit

You tell me lies and

You give what you get

So blow those fucking words out the back of your head

Tell yourself your not alone at all

(Looking out your window. Know you’re all alone)

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Desert Rose
20:46 Jan 04 2010
Times Read: 661

I dream of rain

I dream of gardens in the desert sand

I wake in vain

I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of fire

Those dreams are tied to a horse that will never tire

And in the flames

Her shadows play in the shape of a man's desire

This desert rose

Each of her veils, a secret promise

This desert flower

No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this

And as she turns

This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams

This fire burns

I realize that nothing's as it seems

I dream of rain

I dream of gardens in the desert sand

I wake in vain

I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of rain

I lift my gaze to empty skies above

I close my eyes

This rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of her love

I dream of rain

I dream of gardens in the desert sand

I wake in vain

I dream of love as time runs through my hand

Sweet desert rose

Each of her veils, a secret promise

This desert flower

No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this

Sweet desert rose

This memory of Eden haunts us all

This desert flower

This rare perfume, is the sweet intoxication of the fall

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Errore
01:09 Jan 04 2010
Times Read: 665

setaccio e vado alla deriva attraverso merda,

Quello contagia da un giorno all'altro,

Mai realmente notereste I' la VE andata via?

I' m. sopra la parete,

sopra la collina,

Sopra al vostro posto,

I' m. sopra i safetys,

sopra le chiamate di telefono,

Sopra collera, Ché errore.

Quando you' la VE ha perso le pietre per gettare, quelle che trovassi per fare un fuoco,

E tutte le anima sole che dicono in modo da ottengono infornate.

I' m. sopra la parete,

sopra la collina,

Sopra al vostro posto,

I' m. sopra i safetys,

sopra le chiamate di telefono,

Sopra collera, Ché errore.

Ché errore,

ché errore,

ché errore,

ché errore,

I' la VE non perso mai,

I' la VE non trovato mai,

E non fa differenza,

se I' m. intorno,

There' s mai non stata parole,

there' s mai non stata promesse mai non fatte di azioni che i' la VE non mantenuta mai.

I' m. sopra la parete,

sopra la collina,

Sopra al vostro posto,

I' m. sopra i safetys,

sopra le chiamate di telefono,

Sopra collera, Ché errore.

I appena can' la t sembra uscire di questa, tirando i filetti,

I' m. che tira sempre i filetti,

I' m. che tira sempre i filetti,

ché errore, errore.

Mai realmente notereste I' la VE andata via?

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